Then New Year's Eve of 1988 I meet the love of my life in James Graham...We were inseperable from that night on...Jim's best friend Brian knew that we were a good match...One of Jim's friends didn't like the idea that Jim was dating a Africian-American woman...Jim didn't care what his friend thought about us...The first time that Jim meet my Mom, he had gone to the florist to get her a dozen white roses and was going to take her to lunch...He pretended to be the delivery man and asked for her by name and everyone was watching and then he told her who he was and that is when I showed up and we all went to lunch...Jim asked her if it would be okay with her if he could have my hand in marriage...She told him yes she would be honorered if he would be her son-in-law...I had a journal that had how I wanted my wedding to be and Jim got ahold of it and was planning it just the way I wanted...We were going to announce our engagement at a party that we had planed after a health scare that I had on July 18th...One of my best friends needed someone to babysit for her so I told her that I had somewhere to be later on in the evening...I called Jim to let him know that I would be there as soon as I can...He said okay just hurry up and get here...Well Adrianne didn't show up till the next morning...I was pissed at her and her excuse was that they had a flat tire...Year's later she told me that they were just up the street from me...Well that night Jim and his friend Larry were on their way to the store when someone pulled out in front of them and they both flew over the car...Larry died 30 minutes after the accident...Jim died 24 hour's after the accident.

Now I am married to the second love of my life Taliesin Nightwalker...He goes by Walker for short...We have had a rocky marriage...Our first two year's, we had to go to court almost every week because his ex-girlfriend just couldn't move on...She had told him that he was the father of her child...While in court one time she was talking to her lawyer off to the side in the courtroom and she told him that my husband wasn't the father and that she was just trying to get back at him...The judge and the courtroom all heared what she said, so the judge told my husband that he could sue her for slander...We didn't sue but for the longest time we hid from her and her family...

Just before our wedding Walker got laid off from his job at a auto detailing shop...But he did find another job with another company...That didn't last long because she found out where he was working and served him with a small claims case...It was thrown out because she had no profuse...Walker and I have been living with my Mom since we got married because she was really ill...Walker decided to become a real estate agent...He has sold a few houses but lately he has had some lousy partners but now he has a great mentor and they are working on a big deal...I hadn't work for awhile until I decided to go in to the mortgage business...I became a loan officer for a great company but the branch that I was with wouldn't train me and they put me with a senior loan officer who I could never get ahold of her...Walker and I put an ad in the paper to get more clients and when I would call her for help she would put us off and would never get back to us.

Because of our lack of money I decided to go back to work as a loan Officer for the same company but a different branch with the promise that I would be trained...Now in the state of Washington, I need to have a license to be a loan officer...My senior partner has said that he will train me until I can get my license...

My Mom has been wonderful but she has been dealing with my Grandfather who is dying...It is just a matter of time before he is gone...I have been dealing with it as he is the only Grandparent that I have left and I can't even be there for my Mom...My Grandfather lives in Texas, and so she is there with him...She is planning a funeral for her Father...

I bought The Secret in the book form with the last of our money...Then we sold our car and with some of the money we bought the audio and the dvd...We have been watching the dvd, but before we bought the dvd we read the book...We have been using the techniques that we have learned from the Secret...I am trying to stay positive, when we are running out of money and the fact the my Grandfather is dying.

I want to be able to set my Mom up so that she doesn't have to worry about a thing...I want to be able to set up a trust fund for my niece and nephew so that if they ever need anything they have that to fall back on because I don't have any children.